I’ve been looking forward to uni for the last 3 years and now I’m here it’s so hard and I feel like such an idiot crying (not in front of people I’m not a twat) and I’m not used to being without chris let alone being in a place where I have NO friends and I can’t even call him when I’m feeling lonely and I haven’t felt this alone for a long long long time and I need to stop crying or I’ll never make friends but it’s so hard. I’m glad Hayley’s here or I’d be going insane with no one I like who is genuinely really nice and I’ll meet her friends tonight, I just hope so much they’re nice and I can properly bond with them otherwise southampton will END ME. I feel ridiculous saying I miss chris since I broke up with him but it’s true because you can miss someone’s company even if you don’t want to be in a relationship with them (and I’m not even entirely sure that I don’t want that) so really don’t know if anyone still knows this blog exists but I don’t care I needed to write all of this. I don’t know if anyone else feels like this too I feel like everyone around me is having this incredible experience and I don’t know why or how but I’ve missed it.